When I followed the models that I’m about to write about, I never set out to write about them. It was deeply personal. First, it was based solely on attraction. Second, since they were on platforms that allowed for one on one communication, this gave me deeper access to their thoughts and feelings–if there were any. One of them was unresponsive but I was apart of his LIVES on social media and saw how he interacted with fans to learn some things.
Now, you may want to dismiss this entire post when I tell you that I’m not going to reveal their names but hear me out. The conversations I had were private and I preferred to not be sued but also I respect them. The other thing is you can very easily do what I have done yourself by going to apps like Just For Fans or OnlyFans or the like and more than likely find the same answers after you read this. But trust me, you want to read this.
Why do you want to read this? Because these were three top gay content creators making well over 100,000.00 a month and were either nominated and/or won awards at the GayVN awards. So, body wise we are talking hot-hot-hot. I’m honestly not much of a “follower” of anyone but this just kind of happened by trails I followed on social media.
Instead of just using them as eye candy and wanking fetishes, it wasn’t well into my second icon that something snapped me to my senses. He did a video on social media telling his audience to not be fooled by gay content creators because they use the exorbent amount of money they make to get regular treatments and surgeries done that the average person can’t afford. This is when I first began attempts to dialoug one on one with such a Content Creator.
On apps such as Onlyfans and the like where a number of Gay models are, you generally get spam or AI generated chats. If you try to break that with some honest chat, often it can lead to manipulation right back to a sale of an expensive private video session. Nevertheless, in putting myself out there with this young creator who was new to the scene but fastly rising, he responded being deeply grateful. This lead to a lot to chats off and on about the industry. He would also at times do more videos encouraging people to not compare themselves to models like himself.
At one point, he became very adamant, and told me what we see on the screen of them is “all BS”. When I asked for him to clarify, he let me know that in real life they don’t look that way. This particular gay model is newer but quickly rising and won awards as well as nominated this year at the GayVN. I’ve never seen someone on the model circuit with so many men. At one point, I made a comment to him that a lot of his social media posts were of him in all these locals doing all these things but he seemed lonely and his spare tim pics were of him alone. So, I asked him was this how he wanted to be spending his life? It challenged him and he said so in no uncertain terms publically. I almost regret it because I think it came off a little condemning to him perhaps but it really is a concern. Yes, he is making loads of money, seeing the world, making connections with all these men. But how deep are those connections? What is all this doing to your soul? What future does it leave you with? They are questions I don’t have an answer to though I know for him he would say he has no regrets and is having the time of his life.
Not everyone does though. One top creator I was following and getting some communication from, albeit bare bones, doesn’t have a lot of awards though has been nominated a few times. He was clearing well over 100,000+ a month and more at his height. He would share this later– more so in his downfall on social media. He was someone I could watch having sex with a tree, he was just that hot. His magic was in remaining silent because it left mystery about him. That’s not always the best route in this day and age, but when he began talking , he was immediately lying. Even in our small one on one chats I sensed he was very manipulative. He got on social media, changing his story about being gay one day, straight the next, and bi the next, it was clear, he was better off with his mouth shut. He started bringing a girl on a gay exclusive page. His content quality went bad also. People are understandably outraged. So his average salary dropped dramatically. Still high for us–60,000 a month–but lower. However, this lead to him revealing more about himself and the industry on social media after all this. He now wants to talk. When it comes to his sexuality, it’s BS. It changes every day and never matches his content. But the other reveals are honest. Such as, that he had been dealing with depression bad, that all the traveling gets lonely and tiring. Also, that as far as what he sees, many gay male creators, like him, take body performance enhancemencers and ED pills to give themselves the edge over the competition. Wow. Just wow.
Now, let’s just take a pause here. That is 2 top gay male models that have collabed with a lot of other award winning models in the industry basically telling us a lot of what we see involves a combination of enhancers, maybe some surgeries, performance enhancers like steriods or whatever and ED pills? I don’t know about you, but that gives me a sense of relief. We have such visually stimulated culture now and guys are made to look like a Krispy Kreme Donut and we look down at ourselves and might feel like a donut from the gas station glass box. Or more like the hot dog without the bun. 2 days old. But in reality, it’s a manufactured standard we can be comparing ourselves to. The danger is what we hold ourselves to, we arr likely to hold others to also. So be able to separate yourself from fantasy and reality or ditch the models altogether. You have to for your own sanity
The last model I will talk about is right now, at this point in time, more popular than the two of the others combined. He is hot as heck and quite honestly, in my opinion, a jerk with the depth and talent of a mud puddle. This line of work is probably all he could do. He can’t even manage to put much effort into a dance on social media. My grandmother could do better and she is dead.
Nevertheless, he has some of the hottest content out there right now. It was why he received so many nominations and media buzz as the hottest upcoming gay model content creator and in the gay modeling industry as a whole. He is all about where the money is at and even says that though he does both gay and straight modeling, he does more gay because it pays more. Not because he enjoys it more. It shows in the fees he charges which are absolutely outrageous for his private content. He doesn’t respond to private one to one chats unless it involves a transaction. I think what did it for me is when I watched a LIVE he did on Instagram and how he interacted with audience questions. Noninterest, less than half hearted responses. He is the only creator I take great joy in finding free content so I don’t have to pay him anything to feed into his career.
His response then poses question about what do the other models feel?
All this aside, he did do one very informative video. He answered the question about does he enjoy what he does. I was surprised to hear him say that while he enjoys filming, he doesn’t enjoy the act gay modelng before a camera itself. The angles are too awkward and strenuous–to pose for the camera just right. I know another creator said you can be in a passionate moment and told to freeze because camera angles need to be moved. I have to say, he is one good actor then because he sure appears to be having a great time–though sometimes clearly exaggerated but that is normal in the industry. His response then poses question about what do the others feel?
I went back to the model who does actually respond to me. He said that he does enjoy it all. Now, I followed up this question with noting that in a lot of his videos, he himself shows no sign of release–only who he collabs with. He replied that is true but that he enjoys what he does for other men in and of itself and doesn’t need a physical release. I have to take him at his word. He is a “bottom” and there are those that are that way. I have a hard time wrapping my head around it because that’s a lot of work and built up tension. But, it does exist.
In the end, I’ve unsubscribed and unfollowed the two but have remained with the one who does communicate. I don’t know how long I will keep up with that either but I must admit he is quite the looker. I would be lying if I didn’t say I’m not concerned for him though I know he is as happy as lark, but I’m older. I know what it is like to look back. Something though I guess I will never understand–maybe it’s because I don’t have the body for it–are these people baring it all and doing these incredibly vulnerable acts that will be on the internet forever. They don’t care about that fact. My brain isn’t able to wrap around that one. But regardless, in the meantime, they make a little of our dreams come true. And, in the case of this guy, he does a good thing by saying “Hey, enjoy it, but please don’t compare yourself to me.” Good on him for that!
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